Updates...

Apologies for not blogging for some time.

For the past few weeks or so... honestly i haven been myself. Many things have happened. And I been trying to adopt a "heck care" attitude and concentrate on my bridging courses. But of cos, it does not work.

I am tired deep inside. And this year, has proved to be the year of many lowest points in my life...so next year would be much better year.. looking at this year alone. There are some unresolved issues that i need to resolve... but by doing it i think it will only make the friendship worst. It doesn't help when i would just claimed that it was my fault... but i am the person who just give in...if u know what i mean... Also, i am now quite 'close' to the major crush i had in sec sch. She said that she will buy me some chocs and give me when she come back in australia. Knowing her... i dun expect much. Furthermore, i dunnoe what to expect when i meet her just to receive the chocs. Another awkard situation i suppose. haiz... learning to change that...

Also, lately i have been eating a lot. Not sure, its part of the whole thing... but i always have a gd appetite with gd friends. I do want to do exercises to keep myself fit... but just that i dun have the motivation to do it... During my NS, i had a strong motivation in doing things... but not now... somehow, eating makes me happy... lolz.

Things are messy at the moment. Nonetheless, got to thank my bestest friend, a person who i at times confided when I am feeling down. I know i am more 'fortunate' than her and I shouldnt be telling her the problems I am facing, adding more to the plight that she has. If u need anyone to talk to, or need someone to accompany u to walk with ur dog, just let me know, my bestest friend, the least i can do.

I have already 'start' schooling. Many more tired nights to go. But I will go thru' it. For now, I am keeping a distance with the someone, not because i am running away... i dun want her to be bother abt it and maybe its due to the fact i still like her... shes also tired. I dun want to trouble her or make her even more tired than she is. I just writing this so that i dun want her to feel that she is no longer 'wanted' or not impt. She's in my top 5 most impt ladies in my life. (not going to reveal who i dropped. lolz)