Mind is Made Up

As promised, my mind is made up.

First, I will cut down on my food esp. MacDonalds. This is going to be tough but I will try. Going to cut it down to once a week. And slowly, once a month

Second, I will jog regularly, maybe 2-3 times a week. Hopefully, knee does not hurt. If it still hurts during this jogging, den i will need to see a doctor. haiz

Third, I need to re-focus as what my bestest friend has say. Need to focus something else whenever I am thinking of that someone... this is going to be very tough.

Fourth, I need to move on. As the person say, its a NO and the fact that we were nv in a relationship should help me move on hopefully. To be honest, the past few weeks were hard to pass by... wanted so much to sms her... but everytime reminded myself... to move on... and everytime i looked at my hp, its with hope that she would sms me...

And I happen to chance upon soemthing in a book, a very nice poem,

"You came into my Life,
Quietly, simply, placidly and my words stood still...
I couldnt express in words or even in simple gestures,
the Secret I kept in my heart...

So I loved in silence,
admired you from a distance,
dreamt of you from afar....

I wanted to say I love you...
I wanted to say i care...
but cowardly, maybe, you'll only laugh at me...
In silence then I will love you...
In Silence then I will care..."

Sometimes, the heart sees what is invisible to the eye. My mind is made up, need to move on... I hope she understands that at times when i distance myself from her... i just dun want to fall in deeper and hurt her more ... I am not distancing myself because you hurt me, dear. You nv once hurt me but i hurt u time over time. Anyway, she will find a better person and I know she will.


Sleeping liao.. ><

Off to jogging

I made up my mind... but i shall blog it after my jog. or maybe after my Econs paper.. seeya~~~!!!

Blading @ East Coast Park

Last Saturday, the Bearz had an blading day at East Coast Park. For most of us, it was our first time at blading. We had a wonderful time blading. It was pretty fun too.

Nv blade before but definitely enjoy. When is our next blading day? lolz

Invited Dear to join us and she joined us for dinner after her long lecture day. Thanks Dear for joining us. Hope you enjoy urself having dinner with the Bearz. :)

Okok now back to studying my maths paper, which is tomorrow~~~!!! Yesterday did revise a bit only like 1-2hrs. Got to remind myself to msg Princess S "Happy Birthday!" today, will send her an sms close to midnight. Hehehe.

Dunnoe if I should let her read my blog or not? Maybe I will do... lolz.

881 - Nice movie!!!

Watched 881, the getai movie with my interactors today.

Very nice!!! I guess to me, it was a 5stars movie!!!! Who says Singapore lacks the talent? Now we got Royston Tan!!! Nice movie which i enjoyed pretty much, though it was in Hokkien but of cos with the English subtitles, I managed to understand the movie.

The plot was gd! And very touching~~~~!!! Love it.
"Take half a piece, our relationship will nv split" (cant remb the exact words)hehe

The cast was also well picked. I am not going to miss any Royston movies and Jack Neo's movies anymore. Hope u will like the movie as I really enjoyed the movie. Cheers

24 Donuts and 1 Cake

Last Tuesday, was going to surprise Dear, by treating her to eat donuts and cake. So asked Meow meow if she was keen and interested to eat donuts and cake too. And she say "Yesh!"

So we proceeded with the idea of just surprising Dear. Hehehe. Asked Yogi if she was keen and she was pretty keen but could only join us later. Since Meow meow, Yogi and Dear were in the plan, asked CY if she could make it and she also could make it. So its an installation post celebrations for the main initial organizing committee.

So met Meow meow and was infd by her that Dear cant make it. *faints* lolz. We were pretty keen to have donuts and for me some cake since it was on offer. lolz. So we made our way down to queue.

Den, Meow meow received a call from Dear that she wanna placed so orders for her colleague. So helped her. Dear's order was 8 donuts. So Meow meow and I agreed to round off to 12. Cheaper. And buy another 12 for the whole grp that is coming. However, at the very last minute, Yogi and CY cant make it. So left me and Meow meow to finish up the donuts and not forgetting thae cake that i bought from Secret Recipe. lolz. So Dear was 'laughing' at us as we didnt finish our donuts and left a lot of cake. Dear, thats the story behind the miscalculations.

Anyway, Dear invited us to have dinner with her gang. Felt a bit out of place. See I am an introvert at times. Dear, thanks for asking if i am ok or whether if I am hungry... I am ok not to worry but a bit hungry but its ok lah. Appreciate the gesture. thanks!

No more night classes. Yahoo!!

Yesterday was my last night classes. Kinda happy that i will not be attending so many night classes. Yahoo!!!

On other hand, i think i will miss the class, cos of one girl who looked like my crush in poly. Hehehe. Turn out that she was not in the any of the classes that I have enrolled. Well, thats life...

Anyway, today watched Harry Potter with Yip, Val and Steph. I am not a Harry Potter fan so movie show was not that enjoyable for me. Nonetheless, not that bad a movie. I think it needed more action. lolz.

After that we hang out at our usual prata place to have pratas. Maybe next time, I will order something different. okok a bit tired. Actually i cant wait to have my next outing with the bearz at east coast for a blading session. Nv done blading in my life... wonder how i fare.. lolz

Soulmates....?

A few days ago, Princess S and I had a conversation... was feeling a bit down and i missed a particular person so bad... haiz... this is going to be tough for me... but after talking to Princess S, i felt much much better. Thanks Princess S~~~!!!

This is the conversation:

dicapio says: but the time spent with her was sooooo special
princess S says: well.. at least cherish that
princess S says: and if u can't have her for anything else
princess S says: have her as a soulmate

dicapio says: isnt soulmate is someone that u love? as in that person is the one for u
princess S says: no
princess S says: a soulmate is someone whom u have shared so much with
princess S says: but u guys don't necessarily have to be together
princess S says: to me a soulmate is someone who cares and loves for u
princess S says: and has made sacrifices for u
princess S says: but because of circumstances
princess S says: u guys can't be together
princess S says: but in each other's heart
princess S says: u guys have a special little place for one another that no one can touch

an interesting interpretation of soulmates... mine is different though. At times, I envy those ppl who are persistent in their efforts in Love. One extreme person is Mr Ant but despite the other party constant refusal saying no cos' of no chemistry and feelings, Mr Ant nv gives up.

On the other hand, I am different... if a person says no.... i will just run away and hide. Its not that i like to dwell in the past... its just that there is an emptiness in my heart, a big one, since she is 'gone'. I say to myself to let go... but its very hard... at times, i really wonder whether not to let go.

I really enjoy my times with her... and with the situation now, i will cherish it even more, i wun show it, but quietly i am. As she always 'says' at times, the feelings no need to be felt but it can be felt in the heart.

I hope i dun make her feel sad by reading this entry.... so many things have happened and somehow at times, i feel i am at fault too. This entry is not to make u feel sad, my dear friend, just that i want to blog away my feelings. Pls dun be sad... as I always say. to you on my first advice and subsequent ones.. if you are sad, I am also sad...