Slept at 4am yesterday.
Was baring my feelings to a special person in my life. Tears rolled down my cheeks as i cuddle up on my bed, thinking of her... soon after i fell asleep. Somehow, the title which was my MSN nick, sparked the reason for baring my feelings to her.
Sayang, is a special girl in my life, cheering me up when I am feeling down and with the constant smses, we became very close. Never did i thought that she could replace, Sadoko, a girl who I had a major crush during my secondary school days.
I wanted so much to tell her that I love her but was afraid to lose a very gd friend. In fact, she meant more than that. Shortly, another guy enter her life.
Despite being crushed when she first told me abt it, I continued to give her advices in her relationships whenever she was feeling down abt her relationships. Wanted so much to tell her to break up with her bf and confess my feelings to her... but I am not such a person... Nonetheless, secretly while giving her advices, this friend of her's just tolerate the pain of his unconfessed love and continued to support her, knowing that her happiness is much important. Now, she and her bf are stable.
As I told her that I still had feelings for her, she replied it was sweet of me. Then, she told me that had I been the one confessing my love to her first, I could be her bf. Yet again, I was crushed knowing that I missed a golden opportunity but knowing that she love me at that moment was the 'cushion' that I needed to bounce back.
For now, this friend of her's can only guide his Sayang and continue to give his support whenever needed. Yes, Sayang, you will always be close to my heart forever.
Love you, Sayang . :)
Thanks Dear (Still thinking of a nick for my dear auntie... hehehe. :P) and Boo Bear for comforting me. Love you too, always~~~~!!! :)
P.S Sayang, if for some reason that I give u read my blog, that would mean that I would recover completely from this 'relationship'. You are very important in my life. And I don't want you to know that I love you more than what u imagine. It will definitely 'ruin' our future meetings.
Was baring my feelings to a special person in my life. Tears rolled down my cheeks as i cuddle up on my bed, thinking of her... soon after i fell asleep. Somehow, the title which was my MSN nick, sparked the reason for baring my feelings to her.
Sayang, is a special girl in my life, cheering me up when I am feeling down and with the constant smses, we became very close. Never did i thought that she could replace, Sadoko, a girl who I had a major crush during my secondary school days.
I wanted so much to tell her that I love her but was afraid to lose a very gd friend. In fact, she meant more than that. Shortly, another guy enter her life.
Despite being crushed when she first told me abt it, I continued to give her advices in her relationships whenever she was feeling down abt her relationships. Wanted so much to tell her to break up with her bf and confess my feelings to her... but I am not such a person... Nonetheless, secretly while giving her advices, this friend of her's just tolerate the pain of his unconfessed love and continued to support her, knowing that her happiness is much important. Now, she and her bf are stable.
As I told her that I still had feelings for her, she replied it was sweet of me. Then, she told me that had I been the one confessing my love to her first, I could be her bf. Yet again, I was crushed knowing that I missed a golden opportunity but knowing that she love me at that moment was the 'cushion' that I needed to bounce back.
For now, this friend of her's can only guide his Sayang and continue to give his support whenever needed. Yes, Sayang, you will always be close to my heart forever.
Love you, Sayang . :)
Thanks Dear (Still thinking of a nick for my dear auntie... hehehe. :P) and Boo Bear for comforting me. Love you too, always~~~~!!! :)
P.S Sayang, if for some reason that I give u read my blog, that would mean that I would recover completely from this 'relationship'. You are very important in my life. And I don't want you to know that I love you more than what u imagine. It will definitely 'ruin' our future meetings.
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